A Journal Entry

Hello! Below I have included a journal entry I wrote May 30th, 2017 at 9:35 PM. I feel like I should because it displays how anxiety makes you doubt, but how it can also bring you to God’s glory. Anxiety and depression affects every area of your life. So, here it goes! DISCLAIMER: please know […]

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Getting Better

If you’ve ever dealt with mental illness, you might be able to relate to this. Getting better is great. That’s the hope, right? To not have the horrible thoughts that keep you up at night, to lose bad habits, to be able to connect with people the way you should. These are all great things […]

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My Favourite Love Story

If you came here for a sappy love story, I’m sorry to disappoint. This story is full of grief and hurt and pain. It’s full of hurt feelings and affairs. It contains some things that I still haven’t come to terms with, but I feel that they need to get out in the open. Don’t […]

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It is Finished

As I sit here and realize that I’m not good enough, a series of emotions pour into me. One is despair. How will I ever succeed in this world? How will I get anyone to fall in love with me? How will I get a job? How will I keep friends? How will anything good […]

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Derealization

de·re·al·i·za·tion dēˌrē(ə)ləˈzāSHən/ noun a feeling that one’s surroundings are not real, especially as a symptom of mental disturbance. I’ve written a lot about my anxiety and depression as I try to sort through it. It’s always been kind of scary. It’s always been an unknown. It always will be an unknown I think. Derealization is […]

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It Might Be Okay

Yesterday, I felt a panic attack coming on and so I took extra meds for the first time. With the last of my anxious energy, I cleaned the entire house. Once they kicked in, I put music on and just laid on the floor. I just laid there and stared at the ceiling for what […]

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Happy Birthday

So, somehow this blog has kind of just turned into me writing about my anxiety. I promise that there are other things happening, things that I will talk about. However, anxiety just seems to be the most obvious thing to me right now. Today was my 21st birthday. It didn’t seem too different than most […]

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